im fallin' for you..

I had to survive the whole of yesterday with severe stomach pains.
just when i thought it was getting better towards the night, i was awoken by the pain again while i was sleeping.
and it was followed by a series of times i had to go to the toilet to release myself.
the doc said it was either a case of viral infection or i ate something wrong.

but we still got the time to webcam. after eons of not doing so.

the doc advised me to eat clear food. like wtf. i ate porridge the whole day.
and the portions of all 3 meals equalled to 1 portion i would hv eaten if i wasnt sick at all.
now i wanna go try study for DESATT. if nth goes in, i wont go for the test tmr.
hey i had 2 days of mc!

I cant believe it's almost the end of the week alr!
then there's the next 4 days of work to survive through.
i felt super lethargic the whole day in sch and thought i could atleast get some shut eye after i got back but instead i got distracted as usual by the internet.
but im still tired. I've got super bad eyebagggggggs now. HELP.

I HAD THE WHOLE DAY TO STUDY FOR BIZ FINANCE.
I USED THE WHOLE DAY TO PLAY SORORITY LIFE ON FB AND LAZE ARND ON THE SOFA.
(not forgetting munching)
I.AM.SUCH.A.PIG.
period.

I'm trying to keep myself calm bcos in less than 12 hours i'll be in a situation which will determine my fate. and maybe my future. oh god please, let me ace the interview tmr. im doing some research on the company background and all that for now. that's all i can do i guess. then why am i still here on eljay?!
so anw, 1st day at work was okay i guess. people there were quite hospitable 'cept for a few. who needs them anw. my feet are suffering from blisters on top of blisters. all the way throughout work i kept eyeing the sofa in the store. and if only i could just sit for awhile it would hv put a wide grin on my face. and because of work i have to tone down my hair colour. they said it was too bright. my gorgeous hairrrrrr
 

I'M FEELING SOMEHOW ACOMPLISHED NOW HAVING DONE THE COUPONS FOR THE SPORTS DAY AND A TEENY BIT OF TUTORIALS.
AND NOT FORGETTING SOME RESEARCH FOR ICT WHICH I'LL HV TO ADD MORE TMR I GUESS.
IT'S 3 AND IM NOT ASLEEP YET.
I SHOULD GO GET SOME SHUT EYE BEFORE MY EYEBAGS GET EVEN WORSE BY THE MINUTE.
THERE'S WORK LTR SHIT.

I MISS YOU.
AND SAYING IT A GAZILLION TIMES NOW SEEM TO MAKE IT SOUND EVEN MORE FAKE.
I WANT TO MEET YOU ALR.
):

So i realise, today's the limit.
i cant do this anymore.
i cannot go on another day being sick wtfff.

 MAJOR headache right nowwww i can barely think without getting my head hurt.
i was so sure i wouldnt go to sch yest but i dragged my huge ass self up in the end. 
now im lazing arnd before i've to get ready for sch and the only thing my head needs is a bump on the wall. 


You know what, this thing that's happening between us yea im not going to question abt it. 
you have the right to choose who you wanna be with and share stuffs with and do everything else with.
I'm not going to be selfish and say that you should be with me always. 
but if that's what you want, then fine. i'll be someone normal to you someone you will definitely just say hi and bye to when yrs pass albeit what we had before. 

FINALLY ABLE TO UPLOAD PICS TO THE COMP.
WHO'S AWESOME?
(:

DAY 2 OF SCH : NOT IN THE MOOD ALR!
for the 1st time today ever since it opened last sem, i went to Gloria Jean's with the girls.yea im still hating sch with the exception that i've got grrrreat company.
OMGGG i've got an interview tmr wtffff
and i heard the brand manager's interviewing me.
shit?

i think im having one of them moodswings again.
i dont think it's the case of pms that cant happen ain't it considering i just had my "monthly visit" just last wk.
ho wells.

i've never really updated twice in a day before unless im really bored.
so yea, you get my point now.
im torn between making certain choices that might affect my future but being highly indecisive doesnt help the least bit.
truth of the matter is i needa start saving.
im typing an amateur-ish resume whilst updating because i cant really rely on a $5.50/hr job anymore if you ask me.
my monthly expenses keep increasing and we all know that if i were to hv to cut down on food expenditure, that i cannot live with.

i cant wait for the picnic at barrage this thursday.
despite the cashflow difficulties, i shall contribute something that doesnt require much use of moolahs but still contributive to the potluck because my original idea of egg mayo sandwiches got stolen.
im alr thinking of what i should wear it's not too early isnt it.
bahaha.

kay now im done with the resume. *cross fingers(and toes)*
next sem's timetable is out on the nyp webbie alr.
hate mondays, tuesdays, thursdays.
basically the days i end sch late. the 5 hour window in between lessons on thur is totally redundant what were those ppl thinking.
i swear they ddnt use their brains. im alr having thoughts of not going entirely for lessons on thur considering they're lectures.
but then again i need to pull up my socks hey hey hey i havent been doing well in sch since the start of yr 1 sem 1.
i cant wait to get done with the coming sem and start attachments alr.
nah, i just cant wait till i wear that stupid gown for graduation and get my diploma.
then i'll stone for awhile because im still undecided as to what i want to do with my life.

L-O-V-E.
i love you and you love me.

i need food.

i just felt like typing even if the only thing that comes out of this is a random post. just because..
i cant believe that sunday's almost over in 3 hrs time like hello monday i cant wait for you.

been at home the whole day hogging the comp muahaha.
i've been listening to deeper conversation by i-dont-know-who because i stumbled upon it whilst bloghopping nvm i'll google it sometime ltr to find out who sang the song. anyways, listening to the song makes me feel relaxed somehow.

So, i managed to watch (500) days of summer today.


been thinking of moving because i dont find eljay "fun" anymore.
wait till i find something suitable enough.
i just ate a very filling dinner now im sleepy excuse me i know im fat slap me.

sometimes i feel that.. wait, what does it matter how i feel again? because at the end of the day it doesnt matter; as cliche as it sounds.
tell me. who enjoys getting hung up upon?
it's twice alr not that im keeping track. my heart can handle just so much.

if you need me, you know where to look for yours truly, the useless one.
yea that kind of talk doesnt work anymore.
from now, i'll be who you want me to be.
i'll feel how you want me to feel.
like i said, as long as youre happy.

i know im being stupid. sadly, love makes one that way.
and yes, im in love.

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im too disappointed i know i shouldnt behave this way.
but how is it that you can do something but when i do the same thing it's wrong?
i just dont get it.
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For someone to understand how another feels, they'll hv to go through it themselves. You can't say that you understand just because that's the right thing to say in hopes of comforting the other party. You have to say it because you've really felt it till it hurts so bad that you dont want that person to go through what you went through. But atleast,youre there to share the pain that you had to face alone. 

4 more hrs to go. 
yay? 

Thing is, Im late.
im supposed to meet my dear friend at 2.
but im still stuck infront of the comp.
Anw,i cant wait for later.
i CANNOT wait to hear the familiar laugh and scream.
and i cant wait to see her new hair.
plus her priceless expression.
'nuff said.

I cant take it anymore laa if i can explode i would have done so okay.
been an emotional wreck these couple of days no idea why im crying so much.
i need to keep telling myself that im strong enough to face this.
afterall, theyre my parents. still.
yea and sometimes i just wish they weren't and i get adopted by another set of parents.
i think it's that sad when people start thinking like that.

Since everyone is getting excited over the fact that Raya is in a day's time, i should atleast TRY to do the same right?
because this yr, i sure as hell did not prepare anything. 
the mood to celebrate died yrs ago.
the only thing i look forward to is listening to the takbir because to me that's the only nicest thing when it comes to Raya.

Now there's an annoying itch on my left thigh.
and i miss playing pet society i think if my pet could die it would hv done so due to starvation or because it ddnt get to bathe.
k dah bye.

my mum want to step clear her throat only because it's so silent that im not talking to her.
and who pasang langsir at this point of time? only crazy people i know. hah. my mum's one of them.
so tak betol.
Aiyer, why is there always something that has got to happen before Raya?
pissed.

Amazing how i was looking forward to reaching home early aftr not getting any shut eye the night before but to my horror i cant do so when i'm alr at home!
Bummer.
i bet the other 3 girls are happily sleeping when im still awake suffering from ever-growing eyebags.
no amt of concealer in the world can save me now!

i'll upload the pics soon(((: